why do i put myself as the one in the wrong with the boy?

because right now i can only really analyze myself. i need to look at me; what i may have done or did not do, where i went wrong etc. i need to look at my would have, should have, could have's. i'm mean like that to myself.

i am someone that really cannot be told something wrong with myself that i do not already know. i'm not shocked if someone tells me something negative as i probably already know that trait in myself.

this is something that needs some work as i do get truly shocked when someone says nice things.

i 'm thinking that i'll get to the point of pissed off with him but i am not there yet.
instead i cry.  ¶ 1:13 a.m.